Dust

I don't understand,
why it still hurts.
As if the memories,
keep making it worse.

I see your face,
and it makes me tremble,
from a fear that stops my breath.

I wish I knew how to let go and set myself free,
but all people keep telling me,
is to get my act together and see.
"You should just be!"

I think that's easier said than done.
Because you don't see the harm.
It's inside, where it's dark,
and it's breaking my heart.

One day, I just knew,
it was over and through.
I can't believe I got away from you.
We didn't fight or scream,
it was finally reality and not a dream.

Every night since then,
I've worried about trust.
In family, in friends and me,
and it feels like everything turned to dust.

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