Ringgren

I stand there, cold sweat on my lip. Wondering what I did in my life to be dismissed. Wondering, pondering, imagining what it would be like to disappear on the spot. What it would be like to have the power to forget what we did. How you made me feel. What I wouldn't give to forget all about the sensation of your lips on mine. The way you kissed the top of my head, like you truly cared for my heart.  Moments of bliss and wonder, that turn into a burning smolder.

Can't you just imagine the look I'd give you if you touched, that piece where all my darkest moments have been kept in silence. I wonder what the release would feel like, and if it would explode? Burst into a million bright coloured sparkles that make you smile. Even if they are the worst parts of me, releasing them would give me the courage to smile back at you. I've seen the way you light up at my grin, and all I really want is to see that face again. So, come with me and break into that dark chamber, forgive my hardest choices and I'll forgive yours. Because it's not about our past mistakes, but our future compromises that melts and breaks down any wall. Mine have been built over the years and the concrete, seems hardened to the point of being impenetrable. But I know, I just know, your smile could make them crumble.

It is the weirdest of times, life moving on while you watch it flow past in waves that slowly but surely take you on a steady path. Yet other times a wave crashes into you with such a force that you lose your footing, forget where you are going and make mistakes. As I stand on the lonely pier, I look towards the sunset and wonder why the waves have left me standing, when all I wanted was to be swept up into the crashing and empty waters. I feel the sun is mocking me with its perfect rays that touch the calm water in front of me. I want to drown in its beauty.

I wrote this sentence earlier on twitter: "Even as the darkness creeps into my eyes, I refuse to let it color my view." It wasn't until a bit later this evening that I wondered what I had actually meant by it. See, usually when I write stuff like that, it's coming from some kind of experience I've had that day. Yet, this particular quote or sentence just came really organically. I thought of the word, refuse, and built a sentence around it. I like it because it speaks to the world as it is. I think we are all capable of dark and gloomy things, however, some chose to go on another path. I do believe completely that we are all capable of evil. Some people find they have no choice but to give in, while others have experienced pain themselves and would therefore never inflict that pain on anyone else. I always say that my experiences as a kid being bullied, have shaped me into the person that I am today, and trust me, I actually appreciate those experie...

"The eyes that shine" Your eyes have a gleam, that lets me know you're happy. The way your laugh, echoes through my body fills me with peace. You make me feel, that everything is going to be safe. That there is a point with this life. and that we shouldn't forget, there are things worth figthing for. Even though I don't know you, I feel like you have given me something. A piece of your life, that I can take with me and pass on. Thank you stranger.

The above video is an explanation of my poem for the day. "Poem for a feeling." If it weren’t for the chill outside, I would be lying on the beach. Staring at the night sky and wondering why I’m here. Holding on to that sliver of hope, As a shooting star would pass before my eyes. Breathless I sit here at my window Thinking about the waters crashing around me, Sounds being interrupted by my sighs, And the overwhelming fight That even at this hour knows no resolve. The wind blows against my window. I close my eyes and think of a perfect summer, Trying to recollect my happiness and faith Where nothing seemed out of reach, And the edge seemed farther away. I’m not lonely, not even unhappy. But sometimes I feel so tired. Of the world and people in it That seem to enjoy to hurt Instead of heal. I have my own agenda, I want to spread the word of togetherness Instead of making the distance between us bigger. Even though I might not get through, I’l...