Ringgren

I have delayed madness piling up, in a brain where I should be piling up success. I have thoughts of just not being here anymore, because it feels easier than worrying about life. I have promises in the future about happiness, and they seem unattainable and so far away. But it is not far away, it is here right now. I am alive and breathing and I am perfect. I don't have to worry about what tomorrow brings, just live in the magnificent moment of now. Because I have my will to live on my side, and there is absolutely nothing that can cripple that. So I say come on life, and let me fight you, because there is love in my heart and light.

There is no pain that I can't endure any more. I am stronger than the thoughts that try to scare me. Because I have the grace of God on my side.

Brain is going a hundred miles a minute, makes me feel like I'm going crazy. It's a monster that I have lost control over, and it scares me indescribably so. There is no point in me ruining my head. Over something that is useless. I need to get my head checked for being, in a state of perpetual fear. I am afraid, of everything around me. Afraid of losing the life I have. But more than that, my future. I will prevail over this, this will not be my downfall. My mind is waging a war, but I will win every battle.