Ringgren

The way he stares, gives me chills. His mouth lingers, above my lips. It would be so easy, to steal the last inch. The wine I had, makes my heart race. He seems unaffected, by my catching breath. His eyes flutter closed, and we connect. The urgency in his movement, makes me feel invincible. His fingers explore, corners and curves. I wonder if, he knows I'm in love. I try not to think about, the feel of the wall behind me. Only his frame against mine, and how it makes me feel whole. I open my eyes, and take in his soul. I never thought, I would be so lucky. To meet a man, who could make me happy. And fill a void, I didn't know was empty. The touch of his lips, makes me quiver. It's like he pulled, on the perfect lever. Filling my heart, with a feeling of forever. He let's go, and my heart stops. He whispers, just three words. The world starts spinning, and I'm standing there grinning. "I love you too", and h...

My feet, can't find the beat. Your eyes, tell me lies. The dance floor, begs for more. I just want to leave. The song, moves along. Your hands, are in my pants. The dance floor, begs for more. I just want to leave. ---- Why do we do this? Why are we here? I don't want to pretend. ---- The drink, thrown in the sink. My smile, gone for a while. The dance floor, begs for more. I am going to leave. ---- Why do we do this? Why are we here? I don't want to pretend. ----

Here in the cold, I feel your sadness. I remember your face, when I told you it was over. You try to say, we can work it out, but I know you don't even believe it. But, honey, you'll be fine. You'll find happiness. I just know it can't be with me. I don't know, if love can last forever. but I'll be searching for it, till the day I die. But, honey, you'll be fine. You'll find happiness. I just know it can't be with me. I hate saying goodbye, so I'll leave before you wake.

When I told you not to call anymore, it was not a suggestion, it was an order. You seemed to forget all the horrors, that you inflicted on me. Too bad, that I don't forget, even though I have forgiven. Your face when I told you to go, was my vindication. It reaffirmed that I had changed, and my strength had taken hold. I don't think you expected, that I could finally fight back. The tears did not mean that you had won, they were a testament to, what I had forgiven and let go of. The anxious nights and the fear. The absolute paralyzing jealousy, when you once again lied to my face. I still do not understand, why you wanted to hurt me. All I ever did was love, a man that did not have a soul. You can't change a Devil, posing as an Angel. To this day, I struggle with the why's. Why you pushed me to the edge, why you acknowledged you were bad for me, and still kept pressuring for more. I guess, I learned the grea...

Stand by a river, and look at the water flowing past you. Does it seem like it has a purpose? Take a stand at a fork in the road, and try to remember why you chose the paths you did. Forgive yourself for the frustrations and long nights crying in your bed worried you will never be happy. These moments matter, because they shape, form and structure the YOU that you are now. It might not make sense the moment it is happening but I promise you it will some day. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not a week from now. Maybe it won't register until you're quite a few years down the road. But...when it comes, you will see the magic.

I don't find forgiveness easy. Forgiving myself, is the hardest.

Following the right path, is as easy as, trying to tie my shoelace, when I'm drunk. There's no map, no signs, that will guide me. It's a trial and error, that leaves me stumbling. But I'm not drunk, not even close, I wish I hadn't sworn it off, it could help right now.