Invader

Stop the thoughts that invade,
because they will not lead to good.
It is a painful realization that you are,
not good for the heart within me.

It wants to beat for you,
so strongly that I'm afraid,
that everyone can hear it.
It has a voice of its own.

No one can silence what feels right,
but I just hope it won't hurt anyone.
Because it is a struggle to be kind, good and true,
when all I want is to look at you.

My heart is a traitor that knows,
the damage it is doing.
My soul is just praying for,
the strength to live through the thoughts.

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