Ringgren

I feel an absence of words, in this moment of pain. The blog will be silent for a little while longer than I really expected. Hope to be back soon.

I don't understand, why it still hurts. As if the memories, keep making it worse. I see your face, and it makes me tremble, from a fear that stops my breath. I wish I knew how to let go and set myself free, but all people keep telling me, is to get my act together and see. "You should just be!" I think that's easier said than done. Because you don't see the harm. It's inside, where it's dark, and it's breaking my heart. One day, I just knew, it was over and through. I can't believe I got away from you. We didn't fight or scream, it was finally reality and not a dream. Every night since then, I've worried about trust. In family, in friends and me, and it feels like everything turned to dust.