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*frustration*

Been a while since I've blogged. I guess I really haven't had anything to say, or well I've had plenty to say, but no time to say it in. Life's good, or okay at the moment. A lot of thoughts are going through my mind, since I'll be finished with my University degree very soon. It's kind of scary for me, because I really have no clue as to what I want to do with my career. As of now, all I really want to work towards, is moving to the US. But deciding on east coast or west coast, or thinking about writing out job applications. It's all so very frustrating. Even this blog post is going to be a little short and frustrating. Because I'm tired and I want to sleep. Haha. Better blog coming later. Night all. Love + Blessings

Signs

I don't usually go around and thinking there are signs in the world. I worry though if there are signs in my life that I haven't heeded. Maybe at some point I have accepted that there are things you cannot anticipate and that my faith will help me along if I am unsure of my path. One thing I am sure of, is that my faith helped me to accept regrets in my life. In fact nothng I have ever done can be looked as a regret, if I had not taken those decisions then I wouldn't be the person I am today. So regardless of the stupid things I might have said or done at one point, they all led me up to this point in my life. And I like where I am at this stage. On the cusp of graduating from university with my masters degree, going on a great trip which is going to be filled with a lot of exciting experiences. And even though some days I feel so tired of everything because these last few months have been filled with a lot of unfortunate events. Like my brothers accident, my car that was

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Angry

So last night, while I was with a friend hanging at the beach and my car was parked safely (I thought) at the parking lot, I come back an hour later and see from afar that my front license plate isn't on my car anymore. I freak out thinking that someone stole them, but when reaching the car I realize that someone has backed or in some way crashed into my car and ripped the license plate off it. I yell "What the fuck is this shit?" because I have never in my life experienced anything like this. My first thought is to look if someone left their information, but of course they hadn't. After standing in front of my car, with my license plate in my hand and being real angry a guy walks up to me saying he saw who did it. But didn't react fast enough to get the license plate number on the car. He told me the make and model but without the numbers I can't report it to the police. I'm seriously wondering why people have no manners anymore!!! SO pissed off that pe

Happiness

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"The eyes that shine" Your eyes have a gleam, that lets me know you're happy. The way your laugh, echoes through my body fills me with peace. You make me feel, that everything is going to be safe. That there is a point with this life. and that we shouldn't forget, there are things worth figthing for. Even though I don't know you, I feel like you have given me something. A piece of your life, that I can take with me and pass on. Thank you stranger.

Hope

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The above video is an explanation of my poem for the day. "Poem for a feeling." If it weren’t for the chill outside, I would be lying on the beach. Staring at the night sky and wondering why I’m here. Holding on to that sliver of hope, As a shooting star would pass before my eyes. Breathless I sit here at my window Thinking about the waters crashing around me, Sounds being interrupted by my sighs, And the overwhelming fight That even at this hour knows no resolve. The wind blows against my window. I close my eyes and think of a perfect summer, Trying to recollect my happiness and faith Where nothing seemed out of reach, And the edge seemed farther away. I’m not lonely, not even unhappy. But sometimes I feel so tired. Of the world and people in it That seem to enjoy to hurt Instead of heal. I have my own agenda, I want to spread the word of togetherness Instead of making the distance between us bigger. Even though I might not get through, I’l

"Sometimes I find your goodness staggering." - Nathan, One Tree Hill

I don't guard my life... If anyone wants to know something about me, they are more than welcome to ask me about it. For if anything I have experienced can help someone else in their life, why should I guard my experiences? I love people. People that treat me with respect and know that a friendship is a two way street. In my experience, you won't get far without friends that love you no matter what happens in your life, and I can safely say I have people that would go through anything for me. I consider myself really lucky now, because my life hasn't always been this easy... In my last post I recalled some of my childhood growing up and how it was to be me at that time. A couple years back I attended my high schools five year reunion. I was really unsure of going because I was going to meet people that had made my life very hard. I didn't know if I was strong enough to see those people again. I decided that I wanted to go, that I wanted to show them how my life was v